20:15 (tw! theres grammatical error!)
umm, ya hello, then? hehe I should say hi at least, because it's been a while since I post something here..
I have so many things to do back then, and yeah finally I'm graduated!! Haha
actually it's been a year tho, but ya I'm forget if have I even tell you this in my latest post or not.
so, how have you been doing?
I'm just so so
kidding hehe I'm good here. actually, I'm still trying my best to be good.
last year was hard, right? or right until this time? karena aku masih merasakannya. I must say, fuck this situation! I know no one on this earth want this covid19 happen, and the situation even get worse, I hope its getting better, we must getting better, jadi tetap jalani protokol ya! even we dont know until when, but at least we have to be healtly and strong enough to face this cruel situation. dont worry, you are not the only one:)
including me, so many things I have to let it go, but life must go on. aku masih percaya semuanya cuma tertunda dan suatu saat satu persatu bisa aku wujudkan.
seiring berjalannya waktu, aku bisa terima. aku jalani hari-hariku sebagai orang baru di dunia kerja, with my innocent though dunia kerja bakal lebih baik daripada saat kuliah. and I'm totally wrong. benar yang dibilang kalau yang paling menakutkan adalah manusia.
karena itu memang adanya. yang aku lakukan? fuck people! I'm only care about myself.
and of course theres ups and downs. ada kalanya aku bener-bener jadi orang yang bahagia banget
but theres time I'm feeling lost. its like I've messed up everything.
aku gapernah judge soal mentality ku, cuman ketika ada dititik itu, maybe I'm just tired, so I need to recharge my energy. being alone nor meet some friends, just want to talk nonsense so I could feel free..
but lately, my insecurities swallowed me. everything seems hard right now, aku merasa lebih sering mempertanyakan diriku sendiri. apa aku sudah melakukan yang terbaik?
apa aku pantas?
apa aku memang seburuk itu?
apa memang sesulit itu menyayangi diriku?
dari sekian video youtube dan tulisan yang aku tonton dan aku baca tentang betapa pentingnya mencintai dirimu sendiri, yang berarti menerima kelemahan kamu juga. but the reality ga semudah itu, its hard to overcome your weakness
atau mungkin aku aja yang kurang berusaha?
but I hope, someday or even tomorrow I can find something that can makes me loves myself more.
karena, aku gamau terus menerus terjebak disini sementara orang-orang sekelilingku sudah mulai terbang.
but theres time I'm feeling lost. its like I've messed up everything.
aku gapernah judge soal mentality ku, cuman ketika ada dititik itu, maybe I'm just tired, so I need to recharge my energy. being alone nor meet some friends, just want to talk nonsense so I could feel free..
but lately, my insecurities swallowed me. everything seems hard right now, aku merasa lebih sering mempertanyakan diriku sendiri. apa aku sudah melakukan yang terbaik?
apa aku pantas?
apa aku memang seburuk itu?
apa memang sesulit itu menyayangi diriku?
dari sekian video youtube dan tulisan yang aku tonton dan aku baca tentang betapa pentingnya mencintai dirimu sendiri, yang berarti menerima kelemahan kamu juga. but the reality ga semudah itu, its hard to overcome your weakness
atau mungkin aku aja yang kurang berusaha?
but I hope, someday or even tomorrow I can find something that can makes me loves myself more.
karena, aku gamau terus menerus terjebak disini sementara orang-orang sekelilingku sudah mulai terbang.
